One of the bad habits that I have is chatting with random girls. I will do a break down of why I think I do this, but it is not acceptable in a relationship. Especially not with anyone I love.
I can't anticipate just stopping a habbit because I am in a new relationship. If I want to be successful in any future relationship I need to end the behaviors now.
I am deleting my dating apps.
While I don't see anything wrong with the apps they allow for an excessive amount of chatting access which will only serve to increase my dopamine dependency on this behavior. It is a waste of time and it devalues interactions. I see no real purpose in keeping the apps on these grounds.
Chatting to girls was deeply hurtful to B and I am really ashamed of the way it made her feel. I don't ever want to make the girl I love feel like that.
It sends the wrong message. I wish I could take it all back so I never have to see the hurt in her eyes. God how could I be so selfish and why wasn't I able to see what I had. Fuck FUck Fuck
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